Reflection

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Dream, imagination, Love, Reflection

As I glance into those crowed streets
Filled with happy faces
I look for a reflection of you
A you, reflected in the eyes of a true enthusiast

As I see them crossing hand in hand
I peek back
I look for a similarity
Which I wish to proclaim in the near vicinity

I live in a dream
A dream which vanishes as I sleep
I believe reality can only be achieved
When you and the world lies asleep

As I wake up to the dream
The fakeness in you dissolves my imagination
As I move back into the happy faces
Each day looking for a new reflections of yours

Have you ever walked up to a shop
Asking for a toffee of your choice
And never ever you get that
And walk back devastated

That joy with your choice
Can never be fulfilled by others opine
I never get jealous as I see those happy faces
As they can only be the reflection of my imagination, but not my emotion

Today as people ask me why I don’t give up
I tell you
I am never afraid of you turning me down
I am just concerned with me, not convincing you enough

Today as I walk back into the street
With the same imagination
I look for a new reflection
Which would seem to replace my realization
But nowhere do I see
Someone with unconditional love like me.

Dare

You know why I was living by a closed heart?
Because I have failed once;
Crushed down to defeat,
Wings cut down to push me to the core of isolation.

With love all around,
I wish I could change
Dare to open my heart
Dare to look for a change

But each time I end up in this dilemma
Should I be good and prepare to lose
Or should I change leaving things for the rest;
Being best just makes me every time the next

Today I did dare to to open my heart
Did try to welcome the change
But it did not take me long enough to understand
Life for me is much better with my heart enclosed by my hand.

A Tale

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Dream, Love, Tale, You

I have always seen you there
Filling in a void which could have lasted forever
Even in the dreams, I would dream about you
And thoughts without you would be very few

The serenity of a crowded place
When abandoned in a sudden phase
Can be compared to a pain in me
The cure for which lies nowhere in reality

At times I do find you near
Diminishing my flickering fear
Catalyzing the emotions
And concreting relations

The vastness of the barren land
The aura of a dried wetland
A feeling which is as concurrent
Lies within my heart, which cries every moment

Experience the sensation I feel
The moment you come to the scene
Some things always remain beyond explanation
Just as your voice in a lovely conversation

It’s now the time for a realization
Transition to reality is something impossible
I would rather be someone sensible
And end this tale before the supreme destruction.

Stupidity

Yes, I am high
Flying high above the sky
Yet I feel suffocated
Suffocated by the depth of water

What did I want?
What did I get?
Exactly what I wanted
Yet I feel devastated.

I am happy
I should be happy
Yes, I am happy
But why does sadness engulf me?

The world, its complicated
Life, has turned sophisticated
Just as scrambling words doesn’t make it poem
Such stupidity just makes me scream, ‘oh damn’

I know this thing doesn’t make sense
Yet I write this being immense tensed
The lines above makes sense
If you attach emotion with every sentence.

 

Dilemma

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Confusion, Dilemma, Life, Loneliness

I am yet to decide
To be here, or move for further;
Just waiting for a realization
To bring in this sense of satisfaction;

Marching forward, here I am
Where all I know are far behind
And all I compete are way ahead

I am unable to judge, if to wait
Or should I just rush to the gate

People befriends only those
The ones on top, else at the end
And here I am, exactly in mid
Now tell me o lord, which way should I lead

I am not sure of my expectations
Uncertain of my future
And yet to learn the reality

That is why, I am here
With no one near
Not sure how things would appear
But I need someone dear.

(Published in The Assam Tribune on 13th October 2012)

Loneliness

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lonliness, me, optimistic, self obsession

The truth is, I like it
The joke is, people punish me
Some stay along
But don’t actully belong

I try to be alone
Not because that’s where I belong
I am a seeker of peace
An avoider of complicacies

I was always a solo walker
Never actually believed in any affair
This is where I find everything
Though people say it is nothing to anything

Loneliness made me, the me
And I seriously don’t want to loose me
That’s why I chose to be the one me
Keeping all aside, the lonely me.

Again a new Start

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College Life, Friends, New Life

Few days past
Sitting at the back
All we used to was ‘Just ask?‘
When will we grow up?

Now today is the day
We all are heading away
To be somewhere where we want to be
Or be somewhere we need to be

Never in life
Will again be under same roof
Spending seven hours daily
Yet never really bored actually

Now, its again a fresh start
Again a new construction of ego
The new run of excellence
And, the beginning of life.

No Good

Achievement is nothing
As contentment takes it all
You do have everything
But expectation makes all worse

You work hard
Lord helps you
But when no one helps you
People feel lord is not with you

I tried so hard
And I succeeded so fast
Yet sometimes I feel
I left a void behind

I wanted to be ideal
Forgetting its value null
But still I try
As I will be what I want

Don’t know where I will be
I don’t expect people to be with me
As I realised this
For the one I devoted all, I am no good.

Rain

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flood, god, heat, people, rain, relief

Oh! How dear I miss it
The sound of the drops crashing onto the roof
The smell of the soil enriched by you

I am not the only one praising you
Thousands of others praying for you
But somewhere hunderds crying to avoid you

I am not a patron nor an enemy
But just one sufferer of thy
You just took more that what you gave

Today here I am
Where people need you just next to air
All these days I was never really excited to your presence
For the first time, I am just glad you came.

Obstacle

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Agony, Answer, Confidence, Desire, Fight, Pain

You believe you can defeat me
Nullify the flame burning my agony
Bar me form acceding my conviction
Huh! Surely clowning you are.

You ain’t know the glow in me
The backing behind me
The invocation on me
As all you know is cupidity

Don’t endeavour to be my obstacle
As you are bound to fall on your honour
Acknowledge the testimony you get
And try to abide what I recite

With each passing day
The fire in me fuels my lust,
The lust of being constantly first
Stop being my obstacle,
Else you will have to beg for a miracle